As a doctor, how would you feel going to ED, telling other doctors you planned to kill yourself and being sent away? Let me tell you

When we have an MI come through ED, they are given the gold-star treatment — because MIs will kill you.
Never are you told, “Sorry, your heart attack is not acute enough to warrant treatment.”
Yet, it was late last year when I was dumped by the public mental health system because my suicidality was not acute enough.
The mental health team was able to wipe its hands by safety netting me with the stock-standard “go to ED if you are suicidal”.